Sometimes I feel like my day has spun out of control before my feet have even hit the floor. You know the days? You can hear little animated voices already planning their adventures for the day even though you were planning to sleep for at least another twenty minutes.
I know it's Saturday. It's the easy day, right? But Teacher Man had to be at church for six hours of the day so "easy" might be taking it a little far. I knew my day was in trouble when Teacher Man was getting ready to walk out the door. The kitchen was a mess, the boys were both simultaneously asking/whining for different things, the laundry needed to be started, supper had to go in the slow cooker, over a hundred pounds of beef was on its way to my house, and I had not had any coffee. I needed help fast. So I began to count as I played catch-up.
164. Food to eat this morning. I am so rich.
165. My sons. Precious gifts. Best investment of five years. ever.
166. New books from the library... for all of us.
167. A meal shared last night, and the mess to prove it.
168. Warm clothing on a cold day.
169. A soft bed to rest on after a long pregnant day.
170. Beef. It's what's for dinner, and it's filling up my freezer. I know it will fill our bodies this winter. How can we be so blessed?
171. Friends. Who offer help. God, give me the grace to accept help.
172. Clothes warm from the dryer.
173. Water. Clean water. So many today won't drink it, let alone shower in it.
174. Baby kicks. This girl is itching to enter the world. Never have I experienced a pregnancy like this one. Never have I known the thrill of mothering a daughter.
175. Peace and quiet. Both boys rest. Ben has relief from his teething pain, at least for a nap.
176. Clearly spoken words. Ben requests water WITH ice in a tractor cup. Well, okay then.
177. Sons who serve. Caleb picks up and carries so many small tasks. His service in the little things makes a big difference in this momma's life.
178. Abundance of food. I look at the freezer, my canned goods in the cupboard, and our refrigerator's stuffed shelves and can do nothing but breathe thanks.
179. A clean, safe home. The average family in 1950 had 1000 square feet of space. I. have. enough.
And suddenly I have grace to share because I have taken time to recognize the grace I have received. From graceless and empty to graceful and rich. The counting was the quiet breath I needed to take before loving and serving the hearts in my home, not just appeasing the loudest voices. Even the one in my head that was demanding (not requesting) coffee.
The day took a different turn. We read. a lot. We played new games. Both boys showed new maturity by sharing and loving each other well. We biked together. We raked together. We took a little adventure trip. And all the unimportant things (like eating and cleaning and not letting 100 lb. of beef thaw) got done too. Amazing how that all works out.
Keep calm and count on, friends.